Damion Hamilton

Afraid to Google Myself

I haven’t done so in years

I feel as if others are doing it,
they are probably are

They see that I am a writer

Okay

You wrote that,
those are books you published?

All the stuff you wrote over the years 

Something from 2006,
something from  2012

Oh, I am not that person anymore

And there you are, the writer,
that they will figure out

Some thoughts laid out for the world,
labeled an author with a name
attached to it 

I am not that person anymore
and don’t want to be

Perhaps all you need to know is that
I am this person standing in front
of you with a heart and brain

Thoughts and blood and insecurities
and truth or whatever seems to change 
every few years 

As I read something from back then,
somehow I have forgot

I am amazed reading
my old stuff sometimes,
wondering who wrote that stuff.