Throwed up the Mountain

Edward Marsh stood atop the massive, rounded stone which leaned outward from the mud of the riverbank to the pool below. Peering over the edge, he saw below, into the perpetual current of the Red River; though shallow in most places, about ten feet deep here. He wondered how it was possible that such a perfect, gigantic rock just happened to be leaning into one of the best pools in the river. 

“It can’t be a coincidence,” he thought to himself, “But how in the hell could anyone move a rock like this? It would take a giant to do it!”

Eddie had no fucking clue. 

He thought of Giza; he thought of Stonehenge. He thought of Cahokia—great mysteries of construction.  

Without thinking any more about it, he bent his knees and leapt into the water, making a can-opener formation in midair. He was aiming for his friend, Tater, who was floating on his back relaxed in the middle. 

Tater wasn’t paying attention. Ed landed right next to him, splashing the hell out of him and rocking the boat of his body, its ballast upside down as his belly faced sunward like the bulbous wreckage left remnant after a kraken strike. 

“God dammit, man,” said Tater, “Fuck!”

Tater began dog paddling, spitting green water from his mouth. It spewed into the curly hairs under his bottom lip and thereafter disappeared amidst the dense forest of the thick beard covering his chin before dripping back into its flowing home. 

“Ya’ll want some fuckin’ bud?” came an unexpected voice from the other side of the river. It was loud; amplified by a hand-shaped megaphone from the woman’s throat outward and into the forest canopy, afterward sliding around the bowl of the forest’s shapely ceiling and echoing downward into the boy’s ears before drowning itself in the river; thereafter flowing westward toward an inevitable convergence with the Kentucky River, thereafter that westward to the Ohio, thereafter that westward to the Mississippi, then finally southward past the French Quarter and into the gulf. 

Something brushed across Eddie’s calf. It was small; it wasn’t a snake—probably a bluegill or crappie—but he still jumped.

“Awh, hell,” said the voice, watching Ed splash excitedly, “I know this kid wants some. He over there feenin’!”

“Fuck is wrong with you?” said Tater.

“Something brushed against my leg.”

“Pussy.”

Tater then turned to the couple atop the other side of the river: “Hell yeah, we’ll take a smack of your hippie lettuce.” He then swam to the riverbank. Eddie followed.

Crawdads and minnows tickled Eddie’s toes as he stepped from the river rocky outward onto the jagged shore. A lizard sunbathing on a nearby rock—a small, smooth stone, though to the lizard’s perception likely similar in size to the one Eddie had just leapt from atop—looked at him as if annoyed; a badass creature so apathetic so as to be irritated with the presence of literal giants. 

“C’mon up,” said a voice. It was a different voice; this one was a man. He was hanging from the limb of a firm though swingy tree root slithering chaotically out of the mud of the wall of the riverbank. “Name’s Rick,” he said, “An’ that woman up there offerin’ up our good, stinky grass is my wife, Lisa.”

Eddie took the man’s hand. It was callous though greasy, as if lotioned with bacon fat.

“Don’t worry about me,” said Tater sarcastically from behind, “I’ll climb up myself.”

“I can’t pull your big fuckin ass up, anyways,” said Rick, “I’m older than shit. Only reason my bones and muscles ain’t constantly feel like dogshit is the relief of this stinky outdoor bud.” 

Rick’s lengthy grey beard blew in the wind as if to emphasize poetically his age. 

“Yep, I’m aware,” said Tater. His feet slid chaotically in the mud as he grasped at the dangling tree root. He finally snatched it, though not before muddying his shins up to his knees. 

Rick and Lisa had a crackling fire near the edge of that cliff descending into the river. The fire was mostly dried leaves and twigs—the smoke was thick. On the other side of the fire was a gravel road leading backward out toward the nearby backwoods town of Nada, KY. 

Rick grabbed at one of the adjacent hanging vines and yanked at it absentmindedly before momentarily losing his balance and stumbling backward nearly off the cliff. Sliding in the mud like a cartoon character, he caught himself at the last moment and recorrected, thereafter clutching at his beard as if it needed brushed. 

“Fuck is wrong with you?” said Lisa from her place sitting in a rusty metal folding chair near the fire. She was holding a stick to the crackling, smoky flame, roasting a marshmallow, which was ablaze, further blackening with each second it remained in the fire. “That bud get to ya’?” she continued, “I didn’t realize you could still be such a lightweight, at your age.”

“Don’t chastise me woman,” said Rick, his face reddening with embarrassment as he walked to their beater of a pickup truck—a red and white 1985 Ford Ranger—and sat atop the unlatched tailgate. He took an emptied tie dye bowl from the pocket of his thin, stained jeans and, after using a paper clip to scrape it from the bowl, took a smack of resin. He inhaled deeply before spitting out the smoke and coughing violently. 

“Jesus H fucking Christ,” said Lisa, “The hell is wrong with you?”

“You got any of that shit for us?” Tater interjected.

“’Course we do,” said Lisa, her tone softening maternally now that she was speaking with a different, younger person, “Here ya’ go there, boys,” said Lisa after refilling the bowl with fresh bud.

Tater took the lighter and bowl from Lisa and flipped it ablaze and took an enormous drag as if showing off.

“Don’t torch it,” said Lisa, looking with concern at the way Tater was carpet bombing the surface of the grass. 

“He always does that,” Eddie said, “He sucks dick at smoking weed.”

“Fuck off,” said Tater, now coughing politely into his bicep as if interested with the pungency of his pits.

Eddie took the pipe and ripped a hit as well. He also started coughing up a fucking lung, though the way he coughed was more frantic, as if he were somehow afraid he may at any moment need to be shipped off to the hospital.

“You boys are bad as Rick,” said Lisa, “Mayhap that’s why he befriended you—he needed someone else for me to rag on.”

“That would make sense,” said Tater, “Say,” he continued, “You got any more of those marshmallows? I need to get the taste of weed out of my mouth.”

“If you didn’t torch it, it wouldn’t taste bad. Weed is like any other plant—hell, it’s like toast! You burn it, it tastes burnt; you don’t burn it, it tastes like it’s ‘sposed to.”

“I like burnt toast.”

“Hell,” said Lisa, “I like burnt marshmallows.”

 “Is that a yes?”

“Here you go.” 

Lisa handed Tater a Kroger brand marshmallow from the bag wedged between her wrinkly thighs. Tater ate it raw, smacking his lips as the mallow stuck to the roof of his mouth and thereafter his tongue and then again back and forth continuously.

“You ‘sposedta’ roast it. The fuck it wrong with you? You takin’ things either burnt to shit or raw as hell.”

“That’s just my personality,” said Tater, grinning. 

Eddie had lost touch with reality, or at least with his perception of it. He was buzzed-off hard from the morning and afternoons PBR’s and the rip of the bowl was the Finish Him type of Mortal Kombat moment metaphorically uppercutting him through the ceiling and sending him crashing back downward into the fucking spikes, his blood spraying everywhere as his combatant—the bowl—posed triumphantly the winner. Flawless Victory. 

Eddie blinked at this thought. He was fucking losing it. He sat below the hood of the overhanging tailgate, his ass itching upon the surface of the gravel. He was using the shelter of the tailgate as a sort of burrow; he considered himself at this point a prey animal—like a rabbit; one of the local eastern cottontails—he needed to hide. 

He was fucked up beyond repair. 

He squirmed around in the gravel, thinking he had lost touch with his senses and as a result become incontinent. 

He was afraid he might shit himself. 

“Hey!” came a booming voice from the other side of the river. 

It was Percy.

Percy was standing at the edge of the riverbank staring in confusion across at Eddie and Tater. Sliding down the muddy bank to the rocks of the shoreline, Chelsea joined Percy at his side, putting her hands on her hips and glaring through sun beams puncturing the overheard tree canopy.

“I’m coming back,” mumbled Eddie, unaware they couldn’t hear him. Unlike him, they weren’t fucking rabbits; they didn’t have satellite ears. 

Eddie limped over the eroded side of the riverbank into those now exposed places where the river had in the past risen. He made to descend the slope and slide gallantly into the water. 

He didn’t make it very far. 

He fell over the edge, tumbling wildly down the surface of the mud. Momentarily catching himself and standing atop the rocky shoreline, he then tripped and fell into the river, fumbling more than swimming as he made his way to the other side.

Chelsea cackled and pointed like a maniac while slapping her thigh with her other hand: “Holy shit,” she said, “What did they lace that weed with?”

At the same moment—when Eddie had just made it back onto the other side of the river—a stuttering rumble was heard atop the riverbank, near their campsite. 

It was a gurgling moped—a true hog—one clearly missing a muffler. The engine wailed and groaned rhythmically before abruptly ceasing as if suddenly slaughtered. 

“Fucks going on down there?” came a voice unknown.

“Who the hell is that?” whispered Chelsea to Percy.

“Fuck if I know,” said Percy, wiping his sweaty palms against the denim clothing his ass as if it might prevent recognition of his building anxiety.

“It’s whoever the hell that guy is,” slurred Eddie, pointing up the riverbank. Percy and Chelsea stared up the slope of the muddy bank. 

“It’s me!” came the response, “Name’s Albert Joseph Crum, but you can just call me AJ, or Crum—I don’t give a single shit.”

“Uhh…” stammered Percy, “Nice you meet you… What’re you doing here?”

“What am I doing here? I fuckin’ live here, goddammit! I tell you what, boy—I’m here to have a good goddamn time. Ain’t that why we all on this spinning rock twirling like a demon-ballerina ‘round the sun?”

AJ walked to the cooler by Percy’s parked 1990 Volvo, opened it, and removed a Bush Light, which he cracked and chugged fully. He crushed the can and threw it down the side of the riverbank to the rocks below, near Chelsea’s feet. He then slid down the muddy embankment in his Wrangler jeans, the collected mud of which he dusted from his ass upon reaching the bottom.

The dude looked and smelled like shit.

“Uh…” said Percy, “What brings you here?”

At that same moment, Tater—who was at that point so stoned he wasn’t even cognizant of where he was—was being helped across a shallow part of the river by Rick and Lisa. He was between them, using each of their shoulders as a crutch. Rick and Lisa strained to walk, slouching in the mud and groaning; Tater was a lot bigger than both of them, and they were pretty old. Tater didn’t give a single shit about that, though—not at this moment, at least. 

“Thanks a bunch,” Tater imagined he said as he sauntered across the rocks and moss like a hobo wino. “Ahhhh!” he wailed abruptly, stumbling violently before recorrecting, “Fuggin’ tadpo’ just touched me. Slimy fuck…”

Eddie smiled while watching from the other side, recognizing his friend’s hypocrisy. 

Percy ran to the tumbling white-capped crossing and grabbed Tater from Rick and Lisa, helping him to the other side.

“Who’s that you got over there with ya’?” said Rick.

“Oh,” said Percy, “I don’t know him. He just showed up. Says his name is AJ Crum.”

“Fuck,” said Rick, “You need to tell that bastard to get on out of here—ride like Clyde—and quick. He’s bad news, and if I’m calling someone bad news, you know they’s really bad news. 

“He’s right,” said Lisa, “Get his ass the hell up out of here. He gets strung out on pills and booze and rides that moped wobblin all along the road, firing his magnum at signs and trees and shit. That sumbitch been arrested buncha fuckin times.”

“He’s got a magnum?” slurred Tater.

“Oh yeah,” said Lisa, “Guys the dumbass in a crowd of other dumbasses.”

Tater, turning away from Lisa, clawed miraculously up the muddy side of the riverbank back toward the campsite like a Morlock on the scent of alien meat. 

“Hold up,” yelled Tater upon cresting the summit of the spongy riverside mound, “Don’t you just think you can just steal my Busch lights!”

“The hell you talkin about?” said AJ, “I’ll thieve a Busch from ya if I goddamn well want to. I say it’s mine, it’s mine. You better believe that shit.”

AJ then reached into the backpocket of his jeans, cakey with the slime of years of wear. 

“You let me fire that gun,” said Tater, “and I’ll give you a beer. Hell, a beer for every shot!”

“Ammunition ain’t cheap,” said AJ, stumbling drunkenly like a practiced barn dancer through the adjacent thick nettle, “Two beers for every shot.”

“Deal,” said Tater.

Tater pointed the firearm toward the river. He fired. The kickback combined with his intoxication made him fall over. He got back up, cocked the weapon, and made to fire again. 

“You might wanna chill out with that thing, Spud,” said Percy. 

“Eh, I’ll be fine,” said Tater.

Tater fired again.

“That’s four beers,” said Albert Joseph. 

“Give me one more shot—may as well make it an even sixer for ya,”

“You got yourself a deal.”

This time, Tater pointed at the huge stone across the river. 

“Can’t miss this big son of a bitch,” he said, trying unsuccessfully to close only one eye as he aimed, wobbling from drunkenness.

Tater fired. 

“Awh, fuck—God dammit!” yelled Albert Joseph. He began hopping around on one leg before falling down into the nettle and screeching like a wraith. 

“You fucking plugged him in the shin,” said Rick, “I’ll tell ya what—that shit hurts. Must had ricocheted off the rock. I seen that happen before, once or twice. Unlucky as hell.”

“No shit, you old fuck,” said Albert Joseph, who then lifted himself from the ground and limped atop his moped. 

“You shouldn’t be driving that damn thing, not right now,” said Lisa, “Why don’t you let us taxi you to the doctor’s?”

“Shut the hell up, you dumb bitch,” said AJ, twisting the key into the ignition. 

“Hold up, now,” said Lisa, unaffected by being called a bitch, “You gonna be hurtin’ good. You want something for the pain?” 

She then reached into her pocket and removed a prescription pill bottle of oxycodone, gesturing toward AJ and shaking the bottle. The pills rattled percussively:

“Eastern Kentucky mating call,” she said, grinning. She handed him the bottle. AJ opened it, popped out three pills, tossed them into his mouth, and swallowed.

“Should of only took one or maybe two at most,” said Lisa, “Those bastards are strong.”

“I’ll be fine,” said AJ. He then revved the engine and, after wobbling unstably atop the moped, its wheels spinning and kicking up mud backward across Percy’s chest, was soon out of the campsite and out onto the road. The squealing motor shrieked as if something supernatural before finally drowning with distance off into the night like some specter shrinking muffled into oblivion. 

“You think he’ll make it?” said Eddie, “He’s already drunk, and those pills are gonna fuck him up.”

“No idea,” said Lisa, “But I figure the pills will give him a better shot. Them pills are no joke—you right about that—but Albert Jo is an experience substance abuser. He drives drunk and high every day, damn near. The pills might distract him from the pain long enough to make it to the doctor’s. AJ gets distracted easily, as I’m sure you’ve fount out.”

“Yeah,” said Tater. Fuck…”

“Yeah,” said Rick, “Yous one hell of a dumbass, but that’s all right—shit happens when you party wasted.”

“True that,” said Chelsea, grabbing a collection of Busch Lights and, doing her best Joe Burrow impersonation, tossed one overhand to everyone. Lisa cracked hers and took a swig, her Adam’s apple dancing up and down her neck like some giant beetle stuck in her throat:

“Tell you what,” she said, wiping remnant suds from her mouth, “Let’s make a fire and sit down. I’ll tell ya’ll about the sasquatch roamin’ round these woods.”

“Sasquatch?” said Eddie, “That shit isn’t real.”

“Hell yes it is,” said Rick, “Lisa and I have seent ‘em. They run up and down the hills, hootin’ and hollerin’, banging tree limbs together. We got all kindsa stuff back in these woods—‘specially deep in the dark spots; far off from town—we got sasquatch, we got wolves and bears, we got mountain lions, I reckon we even got gators. Probably some fuckin’ emus.”

“No way,” said Eddie. Only bears in Kentucky are black bears, and there aren’t any cougars or wolves—they’ve been extinct for a long time. There have never been any alligators this far north. And emus aren’t even native to this country.”

“Just ‘cause they ain’t native don’t mean they ain’t there,” said Lisa, “This whole country is immigrants—immigrant people and immigrant animals. We like to call the animals ‘invasive’, though—we ain’t call people invasive. Wonder why? Anyway, we got it all back in these woods; all of it and more. Sharks in the rivers, every once in a while. Now sit down and let me tell you about Big Foot.”

Though disbelieving, they all sat atop their preferred rock and listened to Lisa’s story, which was told so well that Eddie found himself becoming nervous and looking out into the darkness of the adjacent woods. 

Everyone sat drinking well into the morning as the shadow of the fire flickered shadowy against the tree canopy, smoke all the while wafting skyward into the empty black sky. 

The moon hung dimly overheard like a dying soft-white lightbulb.

*  *  *

 A police officer kicked at the tent. 

“Open up, boys. Unzip this damn thing or else I’m gonna rip her up.”

Percy unzipped the tent and looked outside, squinting from tiredness into the glaring eyes of the cop. He then looked across the river. 

Rick and Lisa were already gone.

“Something you need, officer?”

“God damn right. Albert Jo Denniston is dead. Heard he was hanging ‘round here last night.”

Tater exited the tent: “Who did you hear that from?”

“None of your goddamn business, stranger.”

“Albert Jo is dead?” said Percy.

“Sure is. Dead as hell. He wasn’t sober, which I’m sure comes as no surprise to anyone, but it wasn’t just booze he had in him. Seems the fucker had bought some pills.”

“You think we sold him pills?” said Percy.

“You was hanging out with him.”

“Do any of us look like the drug dealing type?” 

“Don’t matter what you look like. I ain’t no profiling cop; I go by the facts. Albert Jo was here, he got some pills, and then he died. Seems clear cut.”

“Where did you find him,” said Eddie, finally looking out of the tent, “Just down the road?”

“Naw. He was throwed up the side of the mountain—way up the cliff. Don’t know how he got his bike all the way up there—fucker must have been speeding good, in more ways than one.”

“Up the side of the mountain?”

“Yessir. Never seent nothin like it in all my goddamn years.”

“Well,” said Percy, “We didn’t sell him any drugs.”

“That ain’t what the evidence says. Evidence points to you did it.”

“What evidence?”

“Eyewitness report.”

“From who? Rick and Lisa?”

“Don’t reckon that ain’t none of your goddamn business.”

“It had to have been them; who else could it be?”

“Ain’t none of your business. Anyway, you need to come with me.”

The officer, removing the cuffs from his belt, then gestured to several of his partners, who were until that point hanging back by the road, away from the campsite.

“Don’t try and do nothin’ dumb.”

“You can’t arrest us just because a couple random people said we did something,” said Eddie, “Rick and Lisa aren’t even reliable witnesses. Plus, they were the ones with the drugs, anyway. They gave the pills to AJ!”

“Don’t you go shit talking Rick and Lisa. Lisa’s a cousin on my mom’s side—some once-removed typa cousin, or some shit. Don’t know exactly how it works. Anyway, she’s family. You go shit talking people’s family ‘round these parts, you in for a good ass whoopin’.”

“You can’t just beat me for saying something you don’t like. It’s not legal.”

“’Round here it’s legal. No one will give a single shit biscuit if I beat your little ass. So stop bad mouthing Lisa. She and Rick are good honest folk.”

“They’re crazy!” said Eddie. “They think there are sasquatches up in these mountains.”

“There are, dumbass,” said the cop. “Matter of fact, that makes sense. I never seen a moped throwed up the side of a cliff like that. Somethin’ like that just ain’t happen, ‘cept for maybe it got throwed up there by a sasquatch.”

Eddie, Percy, Tater, and Chelsea collectively stared ahead, dumbfounded. 

The cops then ushered them into the vehicles and pulled off toward jail. 

On the way, Eddie looked out the window, thinking about what a miserable camping trip this had turned into. 

He saw something move way up the cliff, in the mountains—in the forest. 

It looked big. 

The Penny Walk

“Do you understand that by participating in The Penny Walk you are legally consenting to a full body search before and after entering the fairgrounds?”

I feel light-headed. I should have eaten more before I left, but my nerves made it impossible. I only vaguely recognize the question as one which I should respond to in the affirmative.

“Yes,” I breathe out. My voice seems to trail off even on the one syllable word. I don’t know what I was thinking. I don’t know what made me agree to join this year. It’s not mandatory if you’ve lived in Church your whole life. This is Piper’s fault. It’s not. It’s mine. Fuck. The guard is still asking matter-of-fact questions, when I find my voice. “I’m a contestant. I already filled out a consent form.” He looks pissed. I should have said something sooner.

His voice is monotone now, and I assume he is trying to hold back his temper. “You are at the wrong gate. Contestants enter at the East entrance. That was in the packet that you would have received when you turned in your paperwork. You will have a more extensive search and a weigh in at Gate C. There’s a field on that side of the grounds. You’ll receive a blessing in case anything goes wrong during the ceremony.”

“You mean sacrifice,” I blurt, accidentally. Whatever control he had a moment ago vanishes. His lip curls, his eyes roll, and he shoves me out of line, already beginning to speak to the person behind me.

After waiting in the wrong line, I am running late. I should pick up my pace, but my mind is wandering. 

Every year at the end of the dry season, Church hosts The Penny Walk. The actual festival is a requirement for every citizen. The first half of the day is filled with carnival rides and fair-food. The games and rides are simple, but they help bring the community together. The town really puts everything they can into the day. We don’t have much to look forward to in Church. Most of us can’t even afford the extra butter and flour for cake on our birthdays. There is a donation center for anyone who has leftover rations to help fund the ceremony that comes just before sundown, and you are also allowed to buy participation tickets that are then converted into pennies. It’s mostly men who buy tickets, although I have seen a few women join in before. Any girl that has had her seventeenth birthday is allowed to enter as a contestant. The winner gets to give the money to their family, meaning an end to the perpetual squalor that the majority of us live in. The ritual can be dangerous if you don’t know your own limits, so you are only required to enter if your family is new to the town for this crop season. It’s a way to pay for your rations since you weren’t present to help throughout the year. Most of the younger girls in town enter, anyway. The idea of saving your family from having to ration away the rest of their lives is enticing.

This season, I turned nineteen. Despite that fact, I have never entered The Penny Walk before. My twin, Piper, has entered both years that we have been allowed. She hasn’t won, but she hasn’t lost either. That is more than a good amount of past participants can say. I hate even going to the festival. A lot of the residents love it. It’s a chance to socialize and to pay our debts to each other. It’s a clean slate with a party. Maybe if I was a man, I would feel differently, but I can’t make myself see it as anything more than archaic. Piper has always seen it as an opportunity that our elected officials are providing us. An opportunity to better ourselves and our land. I’ve never been able to figure her out. I know twins are supposed to be some sort of soulmates, but I don’t have that gift of connection with her. She begged me to enter this year. And last year. And the year before. 

“Mari, just think about it. We would not only have double the chance of winning, but twins. I mean, everyone loves twins. Way more people would donate and enter if they knew that there were going to be twins to watch this year. It would basically be impossible for one of us to not win,” Piper pleads. Her voice is more breathy than mine and I have a scar on my right thigh from climbing a fence, but aside from that we are identical. Her curls are falling across her eyes, when they would normally be artfully tossed back in a type of gravity-defying wave. The dishevelment tricks me into an intimacy that makes me want to agree. I want to be a team with her. My insides are at war. The practical part of me can see that this is not anything resembling a fool proof plan, but the twin part of me has aimed a gun right at the heart of practicality.

I look down into my lap, avoiding eye contact, “I get what you mean about people loving the idea of twins, but that doesn’t mean that we would win. Piper, you have entered twice, and you still haven’t won. You know it takes more than just getting the most support in order to win. You have to have the fortitude to make it until the end. Anyway, I am not in touch with myself the way that you are. I don’t know that I would know when to stop. ” Not to mention that Piper is fearless, and I am nothing short of a coward. “And don’t you hate the idea of women being some kind of repayment of debts? Isn’t that kind of fucked up? We aren’t currency, Piper. I don’t want to be some kind of offering.”

Her voice drops, “Listen, you can’t talk like that. Obviously, none of us want to think of it that way. Think of it like this, they respect us so much that we are their most valuable resource. That has to mean something. We need the money. You have to know that we need the money. Besides, we would look so good up there together. So tempting. Think about it.” She cups her hand around the back of my neck like she is going in for a hug and pulls me closer. Her already airy voice is almost too quiet to catch, but I just make out the whisper, “We’re being watched, Mari.”

Practicality drops their weapons, as trust slices their practical throat.

I’ve been uneasy since the warning. I figured that if I just entered the contest after refusing that it would seem out of character, but Piper didn’t bring it up again. I don’t know how Piper would have figured out that we were being watched. Or that we were being watched any more than every other citizen of Church is watched. But if she is right, our family will need the money before the next growing season. Our father is older. He isn’t exactly elderly, but he has spent his whole life working the fields in Church. He’s weathered. He was sick for a long portion of the last year. Mostly respiratory issues, but he didn’t put in as much time as would usually be expected. If we are being watched, it is because of his failing health. It’s not unlikely. In Church, you work for your rations until you cannot work anymore. When it seems like you are no longer doing your part, you have two options. Someone in your family can pay for your daily rations using part of their own, or you offer yourself up as a sacrifice to the growing season. Most of us barely get enough to sustain our metabolisms in order to make it through the work day. It is rare that someone does not choose to be a sacrifice. My father would never take any of our rations. The sacrifice is quick and non-violent and taking from one of us would make him feel like a burden. He would never want to live like that. He has never even pushed either of us to join The Penny Walk like some other families do. Mama has never joined either. Her and a few other ladies do the town’s laundry. Piper and I are teachers. We are all our own responsibility in his mind. Nevertheless. If we had the money from winning, he wouldn’t need to worry about working or taking anyone else’s earnings. 

Two weeks after Piper and I talked about entering, the registration came in the mail:

CHURCH’S 130^TH ANNUAL PENNY WALK!

Fun for the whole family!

Rides and games open from sunrise to sundown!

Free food!

Live music!

Don’t forget The Penny Walk Ceremony is open to all female residents 17+, with split the pot prizes and free citizen rations for life to the winner’s family! Ceremony will begin at sundown, and fireworks will take place after the show!

Registration to join the contest is enclosed as well as the option to purchase advance tickets to participate in the show.

Festival begins at the sunrise before the full moon.

*Attendance is mandatory for all residents.

I pulled out the registration sheets, left one on Piper’s desk, and took the other to my bed to look over. I slipped the form inside of the book I had been reading so that she wouldn’t see it if she came in. We share a room, and I didn’t want her to know that I was considering entering because I didn’t need her to persuade me one way or the other. I wanted to be able to make this decision on my own.

The form doesn’t really give much more information than the average citizen already has of the contest. To be fair it is a pretty straight forward thing. It is basically just an outline of the ceremony along with information on what happens to the prize money if you are the winner. It states that if you win but do not make it through to the end of the show then your prize money reverts to your next of kin. If you live then you have the option to accept half the pot and split the rest with the town or to offer the entire winnings to your family and take none for yourself. Everyone knows that the next of kin almost always gets the winnings. I mean. Most of us wouldn’t want that money even if you paid…well. It feels wrong to keep the money after you win. Either way you get your lifetime food rations, so you’re safe until you’re too old to work, and have to hope that one of your living relatives still has the means to take care of you. Otherwise, you become a growing season sacrifice. The rest of the page is devoted to legal nomenclature stating that you or your family will not sue, due to the fact that you are consenting to possible bodily harm and even death. There’s a disclaimer about how if you live, but are harmed in a way that requires medical attention the town will elect a medical professional to intervene and improve your chances of recovery. Obviously they wouldn’t want to lose out on any valuable little worker bees. None of the men ever want to take any of the sewing or cooking jobs, so it wouldn’t be ideal if they lost all of their women to the contest. The last sheet explains that you are aware that you will likely be physically touched, and that you will not inflict harm on any of the participants. It is three sheets worth of language that likens me to a piece of property for the men of the town to digest as they see fit.

That night, I filled out the forms after Piper went to sleep. I thought about telling her. I didn’t want her to worry anymore, but it felt like a concession. It felt like I was losing my humanity. I had spent my entire life claiming that I had too much dignity to lie prostrate at the town’s feet, and now I was readily submitting. I slept deeper than I had in years. The weight of my decision crowded my dreams and held me under like stones in the pocket. In the morning, I woke before the rest of the family and walked the forms to the Town Hall. I came home and washed the dust from town from my shoes. Once they were clean, I made breakfast for everybody in the house. By the time I was done mama already had two people drop off their laundry for the day. We had weak coffee and an egg each, while we chatted about who might join this year, who would be a crowd favorite, and who would make it until the end. I interjected rarely, ate quickly, and then Piper and I left for our jobs at the schoolhouse while my father walked the opposite way toward the fields.

I turn all of this over as I make my way through the dusty, tall grass to the East entrance. I remind myself that this was my own choice. No one made it for me.

The attendant at Gate C is a woman. I think I have seen her around before, but it’s hard to be sure. Most of the time, the people of Church look like they have been wearing the same clothes for a week and before they donned them they took them for a proper roll in the dirt. From the frequency my mother gets laundry from any single house at once, most of the folks in Church probably do wear their clothes for about a week at a time. For the festival, though, everyone is in their best attire. There are few excuses to wear anything other than work clothes, so we take advantage of the opportunity. The woman is in black pants and a clean grey sweater, and she has her face tilted up to soak in the end of season sun. The blush at her cheeks and the bridge of her nose puts me at ease. I clear my throat, “Miss? I think I might be late, but I’m a contestant this year. Last name is Grace.”

To my dismay, she frowns. “Grace already entered.”

“Oh! That was my sister, Piper. My name is Mira. Sorry, we should have just come in together, but I got held up this morning.” I hope that she’ll take that as an explanation and not ask more. I don’t think I have it in me to go into my morning anxiety and how I haven’t even told Piper that I entered.

She looks through a list of names, finds mine, and nods. “Ok, love. You are going to go through here. We do require a cavity search. After you get to wash up. Then they’ll get you a dress and lead you out to the field for the blessing. By the time you make it through all of that, it’s usually dinner time. Afterwards is the ceremony. Your packet should have explained all of that, but I do like to go over it one last time. In case you have anything on you that you maybe don’t want to bring into the ceremony. It’s better to leave it with me than it is to let them find it on you during the search.” She’s fidgety as she finishes up the speech. She is looking into my eyes like she is trying to say more than she can with words.

I’m not sure what she is trying to convey, but I appreciate the way I can feel the empathy radiating from her. “I’m good. Nothing on me. Thank you, though,” I reply with as much calm as I can muster. She nods again and opens the gate. As I walk through she pats my arm and wishes me luck. 

The cavity search isn’t as bad as I am expecting. Another woman performs it, and she is quick and gentle before she leads me to the shower room. It is already wet with sticky heat since I am the last girl to enter. The drain is clogged with hair, and murky water swells around my feet as I wash. As promised, when I am cleaned up there is a bleached, cotton dress laying with my towel. After I dress, I head into the gathering tent. I spot Piper immediately and shyly make my way over to her. She is talking to a group of girls in the same white uniform as me. When she spots me her eyes go wide. “Mira! What the fuck? I can’t believe. When? What are you doing here? Never mind. Get over here. We are about to make flower crowns.” My voice is caught up and clotted somewhere inside my windpipe, so I silently take a seat next to her. She hugs me tight and grabs my hand. Her voice in honeyed-sweet, and slightly higher than usual when she speaks again. “Oh, I just knew that you would come. I am so excited to do this together.”

Once we are all crowned in lavender and orange blossoms, we head out like cattle to slaughter. The grass of the field is only about shin high, since the harvest wasn’t long ago. It tickles when the wind dances across us. I don’t pay much attention to the blessing. I have heard it before. It sounds like all of the ancient, “out of date” blessings I have ever heard from all of the religions that we denounced. Please protect these women as they give themselves to our town. Please return their bodies to the land as payment for all it gives us if they perish. That sort of nonsense. Some of the girls start crying during the recitation, but I just hold Piper’s hand and wait for supper. Unfortunately, it ends up being nondescript meat, potatoes, and bread. It is more than I have had in a year, but I would have preferred the free fair food. Fried dough covered in cinnamon and spun sugar on cones may not be exceptionally filling, but it would have been more of a comfort. I am just finishing using my bread to sop up the last of the juices from the meat, when an attendant comes in to shepherd us on to the stage.

Piper turns to me, eyes gleaming, and smirks, “It’s time.”

The attendant takes our dresses as we head out to the clearing. The sun is down, now and the wind tempts my skin to rise. My nipples harden. My lips feel dry. I am trying not to shiver. Piper continues holding my hand. I always thought that she must be braver than I am to walk out in front of the town with nothing on, and hand herself over this way, but I feel her trembling. Knowing that she is just as scared as I am sends a chill up my spine, and I have to close my eyes and let her lead me in order to stop myself from shaking. My eyes are still closed when we stop, and a disembodied voice booms across the grounds.

“Welcome! We hope you all have enjoyed the festivities tonight. We are about to run our 130th Penny Walk Ceremony at this time, and we need all residents to make their way over to the center clearing while we introduce our contestants this year. As you know, The Penny Walk is open to all female residents of at least seventeen. If you are a new resident this year, you must present at least one female of age as a contestant in order to pay for your family’s rations from the past year. This year we have 32 women participating! That’s a record, folks!”

At this, the announcer begins going through our names, ages, and what family we come from. When he makes it to Piper and I, the crowd whistles and whoops. She was right. They love twins. I lose focus after I hear my name, and by the time I tune back in everyone has already been announced.

“I need anyone who bought a ticket to step forward at this time. Miss Clara is going to take your tickets in exchange for a basket full of pennies in the corresponding amount. We have also evenly split up the amount of pennies that were donated between the number of ticket holders, so everyone has a fair shot. There are a few rules that I will go over while you claim your baskets. First, the girl with the most amount of pennies at the end is our winner. One small disclaimer on this, is that the girl must be conscious. We have in the past had some families try to stuff their girls after they passed out. Because of that, this year we have decided that we will now remove any unconscious contenders before that can happen. Second, you are allowed to touch the girls however you like, but you cannot cause purposeful bodily harm. The contestants are aware that there are occasional injuries as it is an overwhelming game, but as a ticket holder you have agreed to not purposefully inflict pain upon any participant. Medical professionals will be standing by to help with injuries. The third and most important rule is that we now allow contestants to leave the clearing if they are in too much pain to continue. If you leave the clearing you do forfeit your chances of winning, regardless of how many pennies you have received at the time. Ticket holders, please do not attempt to offer pennies to a contestant trying to leave the field.

Now, it seems that everyone has their baskets. I would like to take a moment and thank these women for offering themselves up as payment for the things we require to live our lives. Before the ceremony each of these contestants received a blessing so that they might become an offering if they do not survive the ceremony. We are going to take a moment of silence to honor their sacrifice. At the sound of the bell, the 130^th Annual Penny Walk will begin.”

The seconds between the echo of his words clipping off and the chime of the bell are excruciating. I am crying silent tears, and Piper is squeezing my hand so hard that my wrist throbs. The bell explodes through the crowd and reverberates across my skin.

The men swarm us. I stand as still as I can, though my first instinct is to cover my face. I am staring straight ahead, elbow brushing Piper’s elbow, when the first man comes to us. He licks my cheek as he slides a penny into Piper’s cunt. She is crying, but she doesn’t move. Next he walks behind me and shoves two inside of me. The metal slides inside easily, and my body swallows it up. He leaves with his basket and continues up the line to see what else he might like. Before I can look to Piper two more men are on me. The first is underneath me pushing penny after penny into my pussy. If I were wet it might not be that bad, but I am terrified, and each one hurts more than the next. I think he must use up his entire basket on me. The other man is holding my mouth open and sliding the pennies across my tongue before he stuffs them in my cheeks. He lingers too long on my lips as he slides the fifth one in, and I have to concentrate hard on not vomiting. He sucks at my nipple, as another man approaches. I am sliding the pennies under my tongue in case someone else wants to use my mouth, when I vaguely hear that three contestants have left the field and two have passed out. My mouth tastes like blood, and the only thing I can smell is copper. Another two contestants leave, swatting at men trying to follow them out of the clearing. Someone else is holding my hands behind my back as they bend me forward to slide more pennies inside of me, and I barely catch a glance of Piper. She is on the ground now, and she is still crying, but her eyes are open. I feel blood trickling down my leg as the men continue to push in as many coins as they can fit. A large man pushes me down to my face to shove pennies in my ass, and I shit all over myself and him. The blood from my overstuffed pussy is pooling around me on the ground. He licks me from my neck down to my ankles. Acid makes its way up my throat, and I carefully push it back down, while still holding the pennies in my mouth. Someone rolls me over, and I notice that Piper is gone. There is only one other girl in the clearing with me. She is on her knees and leaning forward as a man slides pennies into her bleeding holes. I lay back and spread my legs wide. Pray for more pennies.

Wet Schemes

As Frank pulled into the parking lot, which looked like something that would be converted into a future filming location of yet another Mad Max film, he had to admit he was far from impressed.

The bar Simon was over the moon about was attached to a damn-near empty strip mall. Unless you counted the large array of homeless residing in the nearby woods.

Frank approached the idiotically named superhero bar, which looked like some pedophile’s wet dream; he nearly avoided stepping in a pile of what he guessed to be human shit. Apparently nature called merely steps from a restroom in the lovely cartoon-esque-looking bar. Frank opened the door to be met by what appeared to be Cindy Lauper’s lard-ass lost twin.

“I can’t believe it! Frank Murphy is actually here!”

The woman dressed like some arts and craft project gone horribly wrong grabbed Frank without warning, squeezing him like a fucking orange. Frank silently prayed to himself it wasn’t her feeding time.

“Jesus Christ, big country!  A little over enthused, are we?”

The woman just looked at Frank, laughing. “Oh you’re just how I imagined you to be. We’re so happy you’re finally here!”

Frank stopped the woman as she reached out to grasp him in her death grip yet once again.

“Sweetheart, I’m flattered, but where is Simon?”

“Hey man, damn glad you finally made it. Let me buy you a drink.” The curly haired loon of an agent called out, waving him over to a dimly lit corner booth.

Frank looked around, noting that this place looked like a mix of Chuck E. Cheese and a very sad toy collector’s wet dream. As toys seemed to fill every corner as the weird mix of dork action figures and stuffed animals just freaked Frank out in this weird blacked out window bar clubhouse nobody in their right mind desired to be a member of.

Frank began to go sit with his loony ass former agent as suddenly the rotund woman grasped his arm. She said, “I’m sorry sweetie but you need to purchase a wrist band first.” 

She pointed to some very highly unimpressed kid behind a desk playing a video game. Frank figured this kid apparently was paid to play video games and tend the counter, though found it more important to finish his game of Halo before tending to this very hungover customer. At last, he turned from the TV screen to look at Frank.

“Yeah?”

“Umm, sorry to bother you, oh great wizard, but apparently I need a wristband. I mean, I hate not to be one of the not so cool kids and all.”

The kid just stared at him, clearly annoyed, as he handed him a neon pink colored wrist band.

“Thirty bucks, dude.”

“Wow, just the color to match my sparkling personality. So this includes….?”

The little ray of sunshine behind the counter looked extremely annoyed. “Yeah dude, like you can play all the games. Shit, man, what else you want, a fucking blowjob or some shit?”

“You sir, are clearly upper management material. I will pass on the blow job and the video games being I am over twelve, but you have a great day and enjoy commanding your troops in your quest to avoid pussy at all costs.”

Frank didn’t wait for the lovely millennial’s reply as he joined Simon in the dingy little booth.

“Wow, kid, love the fucking decor. What, you decorate this place from shit you grabbed from Michael Jackson’s estate sale?”

“Fuck you man! I knew you were going to give me shit over how the bar looks, but I didn’t design it. I am just buying it, man. I think it’s got real potential.”

Frank fought the urge not to burst out laughing as some homeless dude had whipped out his cock and was going to town on himself right in front of the widow where Frank and Simon were sitting.

“Dammit! Shirley, that guy’s at it again.” Simon called out as he slapped the glass. The clearly out of gourd dude trying to free Wilile just stared up as if God himself was trying to communicate with him.

A little Latina waitress made her way to the table, handing them both menus that looked as though they were made by a first grader.

The drinks all had bizarre names. Frank didn’t bother reading the visual bukake, he just ordered his usual Jim Beam and Coke to which he was surprised he didn’t have to tell this barely legal barmaid what went into the drink.

As he noticed his former agent’s eyes clearly fixated upon that said young lady’s non-existent ass.

“You know kid, you truly are a fucking idiot!”

“What the hell man, what did I do now?” Simon replied befuddled at his former client’s statement.

“You’re buying this pedo palace to get a piece of ass goddamn. Now I’ve truly heard it all!”

“It’s not that man. I mean, yeah, she is hot. I mean, she is really cool, man. You will dig her. Just don’t take a shit on this please, man. Okay?”

Frank bit his tongue as best he could knowing the kid was hell bent on this shit storm of a wet dream. He also noticed his new stalking victim making goo goo eyes at some weirdo with a rose neck tattoo behind the bar who occasionally cut his eyes back at Simon and Frank.

“Hey slapnuts, who’s the weirdo tending bar?”

“Oh, that’s just Tate, man.”

“Seems awfully friendly with your girl there, Romeo.”

Simon kept staring back at his soon to be employees and wistful love interest. “He is a bit of a dick man. Honestly, when the paperwork goes through I will probably give him the ax. Dude, he’s really odd and annoying as fuck.”

“Yeah, and boning your chick so…yeah, smart move, Count Dingleberry.”

The evening kept rolling as Frank and his former agent held court at the back booth and the place remained as empty as when he first arrived. But his friend was burnt out from his former job and simply burnt out from Frank himself and he fully understood that.

Although Frank was old enough to be his only true friend’s father he understood he had to have something more than the shit show it was being caught up in the publishing machine. So, while he thought it was a terrible idea to lend him the bank to buy this craptastic place, he knew he would do it simply for the fact he at least owed the kid that much.

As Frank excused himself to see a man about a horse, he made his way into the cramped little restroom. Some weird looking kid washing his hands at the sink glared at him. He oddly enough remained at the sink as Frank finished up taking a piss.

“You know, he’s not into you.”

Frank looked at the kid, questioning if Simon had employed this entire place from rejects from Houston state psych ward.

“Excuse me?”

“I mean, don’t get me wrong, you look alright, but he’s not into guys. At least that’s what he tells me after he led me on; he is so clearly repressed.”

“Look, I just want to use the sink, okay dude.”

The kid simply rolled his eyes heading out the restroom as Frank quickly washed his hands and got the fuck out of there. He paused at the bar to order yet another round from the neck tattooed prick who had been glaring at himself and Simon for a large part of the evening.

“You know dude, I have to admit I don’t get what folks see in your writing. It’s so, like, cliche and all. I mean, don’t take that wrong, I’m no critic or anything.”

“Yeah, I mean, kinda beats working a dead end job in a place that looks like a thrift store got butt fucked by deranged circus clown, but hey, nice neck tattoo. You know, you should get one on your forehead that reads This Space For Rent. I’m just saying you got some issues pal.” Frank replied. Simon’s favorite barmaid and the thousand tons-of-fun soon-to-be former owner cracked up while the weirdo with rose tattoo umm yeah not so much.

“Hey kid, great atmosphere in the men’s room. Really dig your fanclub. God, that dude weirded me out.”

“Oh, that’s just Ritchie; he busses tables occasionally and helps out in the kitchen. I don’t pay him all that much. Kinda has a weird crush on me, man. He brought his entire family to meet me. It was like The Hills Have Eyes or some shit really was awkward.”

Frank didn’t even bother entertaining the pointless conversation as the time slowly passed. The occasional customer staggered in looking around questioning just what the fuck they stepped into.

At last, against his better judgment, Simon introduced him properly to Sofia who Frank had already by this stage in drunkenness renamed Chi Chi Rodriguez. At least behind her back, that is. Like the refined gentleman pervert he truly was.

As they all joked, Frank made the usual expected ass of himself. Simon’s quasi girlfriend excused herself from the booth to grab more drinks while Simon continued his perpetual future sexual harassment lawsuit in the making stare.

“You know there, Casanova, it would be far cheaper to just pay to fuck her than buy an entire whatever the fuck you call this weirdo’s wet dream to get in her pants.”

“Quit busting my fucking balls, you prick, and please don’t fuck this up, man. I get it if you don’t want to loan me the money, but for once just be my damn friend, you asshole!” Simon, now on his tenth gin and tonic, snapped.

Frank knew not to press his favorite verbal punching bag too much, not because he feared him getting pissed; he just hated the thought of hearing him cry over how he had cost yet another failed attempt at hopeless romance.

The girl oddly looked like Simon in drag which threw Frank off a bit and really made him question if telling his former agent to go fuck himself all through the years had truly sunk in by default.

Sofia brought a tray of drinks and one for herself, which was some ungodly concoction called The Rainbow. Which, yeah, Frank had no reason to comment on, but as they continued their conversation Simon occasionally shot Frank a look that the demon’s that possessed his permanently charred soul could not resist in having a little fun on the nearest victim’s behalf.

“So Sofia, can I ask you a very simple question?”

“Of course, feel free to ask me anything, Frankie.” Sofia quickly replied as Simon just glared.

“Well, sweetheart, would you sleep with a guy for five million dollars?”

Simon did a spit take as his gal pal didn’t hesitate in her reply.

“Oh hells yeah!”

Frank flashed his legendary shit eating grin. “Well what about five hundred?”

Sofia glared at Frank, her demeanor instantly turning south.

“What, you think I’m some kind of whore!?’

“Well, honey, I think we already determined that; I was just trying to negotiate a price for my sex deprived friend here.”

“Fuck you, asshole!”

Sofia instantly shouted, throwing her ungodly concoction in Frank’s face then turned and smacked Simon in the face. She strutted off as Frank just sat there.

“You know, kid, I really think she’s a keeper and I got to admit after tasting the rainbow I have to say it’s a tad bit surgery for me. Yeah, not a fan.”

Simon yelled at Frank, and as he made his exit, his former agent was chasing behind his barmaid’s boney ass.

Frank was on the first flight he could grab back to the Carolinas.

He sat there a week later looking at the blank screen feeling that emptiness that had become his continual existence.

Frank had the money transferred. He knew it was a hopeless investment but, after all, wasn’t it always a shit bet when you banked on anything involving the heart.

The kid had his whacked-out bar, the girl had run off with the deuce with neck tattoo and apparently he had to ban Ritchie from the premises over a rather awkward incident in the walk-in box.

The business would go belly up a few months later. Yeah, Frank took a hit, but he always enjoyed penning and now financing his former associate’s unhappy ending.

He looked at the news, a storm was barreling in towards Kill Devil Hills, yet again. Frank could ride it out, but instead he booked a trip to the Big Easy because kicking back a hurricane seemed far more appealing than eating crow or sipping a rainbow over the Lone Star state any day of the week.

A cold beer will always beat a warm heart. Yeah, Frank hated to admit there was so much truth to that saying and bad memories attached to that title. Even he had to kick himself in the ass but life has a funny way of busting your balls if you live long enough.

We all have to pay that fiddler one day, but at least in Frank’s case it thankfully wasn’t today.

Greetings from Carolina. The beer’s cold and the weather is shitty. I hope all of you out there are as well. Frank typed the words upon the computer screen and left the laptop open as he headed out the door.

The storm could have the house and the computer to the bottle. Much like Frank’s nonexistent heart was strictly off limits, as were his deepest of thoughts. After all, a scoundrel must have his secrets.

The party was never relegated to a specific place. As Frank never cared for the window dressing as one floor, no matter how clean, was just like the next. As long as ice was available with plenty of mixers and some rented companionship, who gave a damn about the address? The party was always overrated, but, then again, aren’t they all?