Sidney Williams

The New Craze

Redgrave saw the blood first. The floor was a smooth white tile, those little hexagon pieces like you saw in public restrooms. Spatters beaded on their surface or spread into thick Rorschach blotches that reflected the bald overhead lights.

 He noticed the naked woman second because she sat on a little plastic chair further up the hall, moving a bit with music that throbbed in another room. She was pretty with angular features though she wore her brown hair limp and untended now. 

Her breasts jiggled a bit as she shifted slightly, taking his attention from her face. She was probably mid-twenties, and her right shoulder was decorated with a pattern of colorful tattoos. He thought it odd she’d spent so much time sitting for that, but people’s priorities shifted too.

She looked his way, and he almost jerked his gaze away, but the focus in her dark brown eyes was elsewhere, not really on him, not suggesting she’d taken offense at his ogling. Dreamy, he decided, just before he felt the sting in his upper arm.

The big man, bald, shirtless but wearing a black plastic apron had jabbed him with a needle. The man had led him in here with a grip on his upper arm. He looked at his bicep as the plunger drove fluid into the muscle. 

“On up here,” the man said when he withdrew it and took Redgrave up the passage to a seat across from the woman.

“Get undressed then just sit down here,” the man ordered. “Don’t drag ass. The drug’s gonna make your limbs feel heavy for a while.”

Redgrave looked back at the young woman, but she didn’t seem to notice him. He hesitated anyway. The bald man was pulling on latex gloves, but he noticed the vacillation.

“Go on,” he said. “Don’t slow us down.”

Redgrave peeled his polo shirt off as the man gripped the woman’s arm and urged her to her feet. She looked at his gripping hand, confused a bit, but she complied as the man guided her forward. 

Redgrave watched as they moved on into an area at the end of the hall, an open workspace. He felt a little shock as he looked at the blood smears on the walls. The patterns on the floor tiles were even more plentiful and scattered in there. Several white buckets were positioned near large hooks at the space’s back wall. 

A young woman wearing a surgical mask and a white apron of her own stepped to the bald man’s aid, slipping leather cuffs around the woman’s wrists.

“It’s just easier,” the aproned woman said. “You won’t have to support yourself.”

The bald man took the girl’s arms and looped the connecting chain between the cuffs over one of the hooks that extended down from the ceiling. 

Redgrave’s brain fogged a bit, and the voices became distant as he watched the aproned woman select a sharp instrument, a scalpel, its tiny blade sending a flare of white-light reflection as she moved it.

He realized his leg muscles felt soft. If he tried to turn away, move back up the hall, they would give way.

He just watched. The first incision produced a thread-thin red line in the young woman’s flesh, the line thickening in an instant before droplets of blood moved down across her flesh.

Redgrave felt stirrings inside himself then and despite the drug’s effect, he drew in a quick breath as memory projected those old images.

Danielle, Danielle from fourth period English. Wavy-haired, usually wearing glasses, sweaters that weren’t too tight but didn’t hide her form. Her glasses had been off that night. Sweater too, and she had moved on top of him that warm evening, striving to make the most of the tight space in the car’s back seat. 

She’d looked pretty fabulous there as he gripped her hips. 

The window smashed in as she arched her back, those firm breasts thrust forward as the moans escaped her throat.

The jagged chunk of concrete missed, but the shards of glass cut into her, drawing rivulets of blood from her face and neck, running down her breasts. Her blood rained down upon him as he scrambled to grab his shorts and get out to defend her from her jealous ex.

He fought to control his breath now as the scalpel continued to work and the bald man helped the aproned woman with the flaying, patches of skin dropping one after the other into a bucket. The brightly tattooed skin giving way from the shoulder to reveal black-red muscle beneath, dark, gleaming red as the music pounded, a soundtrack for the scene unfolding. 

The woman made no sound. She must have been given the same injection he’d received, must be numbed, but the drug was supposed to provide an energy burst. He wanted to ask, but the people were too busy.

And he couldn’t form words anyway. He just sat, continuing to watch, thinking of what was in store. 

He lost track of how long it took, but when all of the outer layer was gone, when her head had become a ribbed-crimson dome and her form, still so feminine was free, the aproned woman stepped back. 

“We’re going to unhook the cuffs,” the bald man said. “You should be able to stand now. The sprint should kick in soon.”

Sprint…that was what they called the drug. The drug that made this all possible, extended strength and energy…through…the process.

Redgrave breathed in again, anticipating. 

“Come on,” the bald man said. And cuffs were placed around Redgrave’s wrists then arched over the hook just as before. He let his weight sag, relaxing. They said it helped if you relaxed and the drug’s initial numbing effects really meant you didn’t feel much. Then the euphoria was a cannon blast of energy through your system.

He saw that demonstrated by the girl. She had grown steady. It was true. She walked toward the doorway that opened off this work room. In the dark larger room beyond, where the music originated, lights, laser slashes of purples, reds, greens, blues streaked everywhere.

The girl waited only a moment in the door way and then stepped forward into the mass of writhing, fleshless revelers. They twisted with the music, bobbed, twirled in the mad ecstasy that had been promised in the forms everyone signed.

As the scalpel bit into the back of his neck, Redgrave willed the blade to work quickly. He wanted to catch up to the girl and dance with her, watching her form and looking into those brown eyes until they both dropped.

Alex S. Johnson

Mistress of Black Metal

Putting her left foot forward
widdershins intention
she’s the queen of the haunted stage
four octaves
shrieking symphonies of hell
she’ll never kiss and tell
but make the crowd her abject slaves

Hot as infernal flames
her woman’s shape allures to abject sins
she’ll lure you in 
then shrink you to a skeleton

With bass lines rippling
her band ignites the funeral rites of
doom

Metal progressive
chromatic, diatonic, 
tritones flaring with pinched harmonics
supersonic speed of triple-headed triplets

The urgent sexual need she feels to
feed on their energy
will never abate
until it’s too late

And she’s slaked her thirst with salty blood
worshipping herself alone, imperial goddess

Guitars burst forth as the chorus breaks out
like a plague, the bonds she makes with the 
melody cannot break

She takes her fill, filling herself with lustful 
notions

Binds boys and maids to x-cross ecstasy
stage studded with nails
forcing them to crawl on their knees
to suck her leather phallus
she will impale them, weighing their pain and
pleasure on a scale

With a feather, all cum together
cum together
cum together

Right now

Over sleaze

As she wields the mic, four four two timing sensory
array display the envy of all the girls never picked for
prom queen, she’s the alarming bitch of
total unrepentance, reaming you a new one

Pitted, cored, she shuts the door on 
the haters

Erases their negative energy with a 
havoc of power

Rakes them with her nails
no sobs or moans avail

She’ll ruin you with her heavy metal
unsettling, craftily she opens the vault

With her hands weaving sigils, signals to demons
footsteps in the sands of cosmic double time
blast beats, black metal shuddering the club

With the buzzbomb rumble from a Lemmy like bass
she can overpower like Diamanda Galas
her sour and sweet perfume weaving sorcerous
gloom within the hearts of 

Sacred sinners, 

Anointed with drugs her pretty mug makes the covers of
the magazines: Decibel, Metal Hammer, Zero Tolerance

She speaks casually of witchcraft, necromancy
neuromancy, ritual chambers where her
captured prey obey her every command

Heads bowed, hands bound, they take her
behest as their own, her face seals like stone

HSTQ: Summer 2024

horror, adj. inspiring or creating loathing, aversion, etc.

sleaze, adj. contemptibly low, mean, or disreputable

trash, n. literary or artistic material of poor or inferior quality

Welcome to HSTQ: Summer 2024, the curated collection from Horror, Sleaze and Trash!

Featuring poetry by Andrew Vuono, Karl Koweski, Jay Simpson, Dawn Pisturino, Damon Hubbs, Catfish McDaris, Dan Flore III, John Tustin, Jessie Lynn McMains, Daniel S. Irwin, Paul Grant, J.J. Campbell, Alex S. Johnson, George Gad Economou, Preacher Allgood, Donna Dallas, M.P. Powers, Casey Renee Kiser, and Arthur Graham.

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M.P. Powers

Poem That Refuses to Shoot Itself in the Head       

Here I am. Gray of temple, oyster 
sauce on my t-shirt, pantlegs 
twisted 
into corkscrews. 

I am the poem no one wants. 

I have been rejected 
from 9 blogzines, 
5 of them fledgling, 
and not once with anything 
but a lousy-arse
form letter. 

Apathy is all I get 
from these dumbass milksopping toadstool
editors 
who wallow all day 
in their social media purgatories 
bloated with self-importance
pretending to be authentic 
to be rebellious
to be mustard-keen arbiters of style and taste
and behavior as they exchange 
movie GIFS 
and wipe the communal
butt.

What do they know about
poetry? 
What do they know about 
anything?

Nothing, 
I tell ya.

And yet it never gets easy
reading
those first words: Unfortunately, 
this just
isn’t the right fit…

Yeah, yeah. 

Why don’t 
you
eat 
shit?

I don’t give a fat rat’s 
cock
about your pantywaist
aesthetic. 

I am my own aesthetic.
I am the poem that refuses to quit.

Try me. 

Javy Gwaltney

Dick Pic

Kaylee lived across town, over on 7th street near the Fogo de Chão. Ben had been seeing her for a week. Well, he hadn’t seen her in the traditional sense. They had met through Tinder a few months into the pandemic. She was brunette with a pixie cut and blue eyes that made him think of clear skies. In her pictures she wore patterned button dresses and overalls that made her seem artsy. He was fairly sure he had seen her in real life a couple of times at the coffee shop he worked at…well, the one he worked at before civilization came apart and his life had been reduced to browsing dating apps for thrills while waiting for some miraculous check from the government.

Kaylee’s profile said she was into The Talking Heads and that her favorite movie was Repo Man. He swiped right. The two of them matched and exchanged numbers. They texted from time to time about their favorite coffee roasts and missing smoking cigarettes at crowded bars on Saturday night. He found himself fantasizing about watching movies together at one of their apartments (hopefully hers because hoo boy, his ratty one-room with a mattress on the floor wasn’t exactly what you’d called romantic). In the shower, he’d think about fucking her. In bed. In a car. His hands fumbling at bra straps, her sharp teeth sinking into his shoulder. She seemed like a biter.

He got drunk one night off a fifth of Evan Williams and texted her these things in a moment of equal parts stupidity and passion. He woke up in the morning, nursing a hangover and dreading what the text messages in his phone would say. He opened the conversation box, bracing for impact.

Well go on, it read.

So he did. He told her he’d like to go out to a movie and then take her back home and fuck the night away. He didn’t brag about his abilities as a lover (what was there to brag about?) or make a case for her to fuck him. He just laid his desire out bare, stringing together fantasies and working them into language. He watched, heart in his throat, the tell-tale ellipses in the chat box that meant she was typing a response. 

That might be nice. Once everything is over. I miss having someone touch me in that way, the message said.

A few minutes later she sent him a picture: her left arm tastefully folded across her bare chest, teeth biting into her lower lip. Black and white filter, of course.

Holy shit, he wrote back. He added a smiling face emoji. Because he was stupid.

Your turn, the message said.

He stared at the words. A minute went by.

Well? She wrote.

He replied with the first thing that came to mind: A decidedly unsexy Sure! Just give me a bit.

Ben ran to the bathroom and pulled down his pants to stare at his dick. It was a flaccid, unimpressive noodle protruding from a jungle of wild brown hair.

“Fuck,” he proclaimed to the world.

He hopped in the shower and spread cold shaving cream along his groin before mowing down the field of hair with a razor. He got out and dried himself. His heart sank when he looked into the mirror. Everything somehow looked worse: the brown hair had at least hidden the pale hilly terrain his dick was hanging from. Looking down at all that uncovered flesh, dotted with red splotches from shaving too fast, made him feel like a potbellied Grey Alien more than a man. Who would ever want to lay claim to such a body?

“Fuck meeeeee,” he said. Time to hit the panic button.

He texted Alex, who had moved away and lived in Des Moines now. Alex had always been better with women.

I need help.

 Your boy’s here, Alex wrote back. What’s up?

There’s a girl.

You’re seeing someone in all of this!????

Just on Tinder. Hoping to maybe get something going on after the lockdown ends.

Is she hot?

He sent Alex a screenshot of her Tinder profile.

Oh shit, yeah she’s too hot for you.

Fuck you.

Hahahaha I kid. What’s the problem?

She wants a dick pic.

Well send a dick pic.

I’ve never sent a dick pic before.

Son….are you fucking serious?

Don’t be an asshole. Yes.

Ahahahahaha.

Fuck you.

Okay, okay. I can help you out. Show me what you’re working with.

You’re serious?

We roomed together in college, Ben. I’ve seen your beanie weenies. It’s fine. Show me the goods.

He took a picture of his dick and sent it to Alex. A few seconds went by.

Oh no, you just shaved downstairs didn’t you?

Yes. Is it obvious?

Well….

Fuck me.

Okay. Don’t panic. We can salvage this. You’ve got enough to work with. You’re gonna need to switch up the angles though. Portrait shot, not landscape. Set a timer. You need to capture your body and face in the shot. Show off the whole sculpture. Make yourself hard and grip that motherfucker like you’re proud of it. Women don’t want to look at your dick like it’s some weird hotdog just dangling there. 

LMAO this is so weird.

Hey man! You wanted advice.

Yep, totally fair. And I appreciate it.

Good. Now take a shot and send me it.

What?

I need to make sure you’re sending her a good one! Send me another picture of your dick, god damn it.

Fine.

Ben closed his eyes and made himself hard thinking about Kaylee. He imagined the sounds she’d make in bed, felt the warmth of her skin against his. When he was stiff, he went into his bedroom and set the camera timer on his phone. He leaned the phone up against his bookshelf and ran to the bed. He posed, chest puffed out, hand holding his dick. He made sure he was standing in the light cutting through his window and hoped the neighbors across the way weren’t looking outside at this very moment. The phone camera clicked. He grabbed his phone and sent the picture to Alex without looking.

He waited. He checked the conversation box with Kaylee to see she had sent him a gif of Sonic The Hedgehog tapping his foot impatiently. Alex messaged him.

Hold on. I’m getting a second opinion from my roommate, Jake.

YOU’RE SHOWING A STRANGER MY DICK!?

Relax. I just need some unbiased perspective. I’m very emotionally attached to the man this dick is attached to. I need to make sure I’m taking that into account. Dick pics are a science: they should be peer-reviewed.

You fucker.

Jake says it’s a good picture mostly. He agrees with me though. You need to grip your piece tighter.

Jesus Christ.

Trust me. Grip that dick like you own it. It’ll make a difference.

Okay. I will do that. Thanks!

Good luck! Let me know how it goes!

Ben made himself hard again and took another picture, this time holding his dick tight like a vice. It hurt. He brought up the editing app on his phone and adjusted the lighting, applied a Vivid filter to hide the splotches as best he could. He stared at the picture for another minute, making sure that everything was as good as it could be, like an artist fiddling with their miniature display before presenting to the world. At long last, he hit send. He waited. The afternoon melted into night. The days curdled into a week.

She left him on read.

***

Originally published in Quarantine

HSTQ: Spring 2024

horror, adj. inspiring or creating loathing, aversion, etc.

sleaze, adj. contemptibly low, mean, or disreputable

trash, n. literary or artistic material of poor or inferior quality

Welcome to HSTQ: Spring 2024, the curated collection from Horror, Sleaze and Trash!

Featuring poetry by William Taylor Jr., Brian Rosenberger, Vandana Kumar, Ronan Barbour, John Tustin, Alan Catlin, Daniel S. Irwin, Ryan Quinn Flanagan, Suzanne Kelsey, Bradford Middleton, Puma Perl, Noel Negele, J.J. Campbell, Mistress Renee, Casey Renee Kiser, Sean Meggeson, M.P. Powers, and Todd Cirillo.

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Dan Cuddy

A Plunge into the River

can’t escape the blank slate
that chalk can’t ride
letters, much less words,
fall
hit their cursive heads
flatten like an education
without liberal arts
or song
or the articulation of questions

words fly by in the mind
river-moon-sky-fire
a rote of words
sheep or baseball batting averages
or the earworm of an Annie Lennox tune

I say river to myself
leap in, am carried away by the current
the froth
the rapid bounce and dash
flash of a cry for help
but
thrown out
nothing to say
like Heraclitus
just an average Greek
clinging to Athena’s ankles
asking to be saved
from Sparta, Xerxes, Thermopylae
the river of arrows in a narrow
pass
a history test of fact, fiction
and don’t ask
for Socratic logic
in a poem flowing
through the sound and texture of words
bird songs greet the sun
poets run, leap into language
cannonball
what a splash!
and some poems drown
because they are about nothing
really
really?
the quibblers come with arrows, axes
critical seminar notes
boats don’t float
that violate the academics
the middle-aged ladies
throwing fruits, vegetables
haughty little *******
and that word I’d write
except I’m not into hip hop
so let us wrap the rap
and look on the river flowing past
looks like the water fallen
from Niagara
the chop and plop
in the narrow canyon
sluicing to the St. Lawrence

I am on the bank
left bank
being liberal
and wannabe French
I watch nonsense
say Dada
but he is dead
that makes me sad

Ash(ley) Michelle C.

Ash(ley) is a country-girl, romantic scum, pastoral eroticism poet. She’s genre fluid; and her style—she got it at Ross and stock shows. Her poetry as been put blished in Bullshit Lit’s Second Anthology, Tiny Spoon, Sage Cigarettes, and SWAMP.

Instagram: @c.ash_m
Twitter: @ash_m_c

Every time I get paid, I always go straight to the grocery store to buy new panties. Always thinking that they are going to fit me perfectly and I am going to look soooo sexy—like the models on the packages…always look so effortlessly mature, classy, wise… with their French Cut casual sex glamour.

But when I get home, it’s always the same. Polyester chaffing, loose elastic wedgie, poor fit sadness. Yet I can’t stop buying panties from the grocery store. I am hooked. So now, I turn my panties into canvases for words that share some lessons I learn or reflections I ponder while wearing them.

Fruit of the Loom Claim to Fame: Poliester Princess

These panties were worn when I finally fucked my hot crush and right when things were getting hot and heavy, he asked what I wanted… I said “Cómeme con los chones puestos. (Eat me with my panties on.)” and he said “mmmm que rico sabe el poliester. (Mmmm polyester is tasty.)”

Fruit of the Loom Health PSA: “COME FRUTA: para lograr una pH vaginal adecuado.” / “EAT FRUIT: To achieve a balanced vaginal pH.”

I wore these panties the second time I fucked my hot crush. And since I had been on a poor-poet diet of sardines and rice for a long time, I made sure to eat my fruits and veggies for a balanced pH… and less of a polyester, iron rich experience.

Fruit of the Loom Reality Check: I swore I’d never wear granny panties.

I remember the times I would see my mom in granny panties. She was maybe in her early thirties and I, a fashionable middle schooler who saved money for fancy panties at Ross. I always told my mom, “I will never wear granny panties when I get older.” And here I am now. Never say never.

NightMARE Crush

Vividly playful, lyrical and savage, this collection is a hell-raising romp through the dreamscape-daze and knightless badlands of sleepwalking hearts bleeding out, and rag dolls rubbed raw. No apologies, no rules, no nightlights and absolutely no rest for the crybabys, Let NightMARE tuck you in for a lucid-dark lullaby. You’ll wake up rocking if you can relate to the hell-and-back heroine.

Nobody puts this cunt in the corner, or shoves her in the backseat. Not too bright…

Kiser’s irresistible quip and lyrical dark humor reigns in this brand new punk poetry collection w/savory horror undertones. “Ruthless and borderline everything, including campy yet, blissfully dark and weird as waking life.”

— RaVenGh o st Press

Close your eyes tight and pull the covers over your head, but there is no escaping the dark disco-ball delirium of NightMARE Crush. Kiser digs deep to exhume the bones of things most of us would rather leave buried, a menagerie of living terrors and undead traumas guaranteed to send your therapist to their therapist ad infinitum. Take my advice and don’t get on her bad side, unless you want to wind up in a poem.

—Arthur Graham, Editor in Chief of Horror Sleaze Trash

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