Nude Model Audition Over The Phone

“A trash compacter
spit me out”
she tells me 
over the phone.
All negative charm 
and more than 
halfway stoned.
She wants to pose 
for me if
I got the cash.

“I don’t need drama
doll,” I say over my
brand new  phone.
Electric white noise 
humming in 
the background.
“Save me baby “
she begs, I need a fix 
before the sun goes down. 
I say no 
as the line strangles with
a dying pause. She
leaves me with slurred
words of a sexual outlaw:
“If you change
your mind
I’m yours to cast.
I’m on Alvarado 
with the whores 
and the trash.
Say the word
I’ll bring my own chains 
and my leather 
mask.”

Hmmmm…OK, I say 
and give her
my address.

A N.Y.C. Rooftop Party and its Aftermath Circa 1999

“Oh yeah he’s beautiful,”
these two American filmmakers were talking about me
“I’d like to use him in something.” 
I was flattered
but wanted no part of acting anymore
I was thoroughly invested in poetry

then I panned out from the scene
and saw all of these heads on the roof
like decorations

later I think my buddy Ryan
had his way with some kind of bong
either beer or pot
maybe one of each
I remember a weak round
of applause for his efforts

he and I were always competitive
and I definitely won that night
there was some kind of electric current
in my veins
with the bright power source of my heart
pumping out the charge

I spent the night at Rhonda and Rachel’s sisters who I knew nothing about
but had been really kind to me at the party

I masturbated on the bed
in their spare room
to a woman who was
also on the roof
her black hair blending
into the darkness of the night

I remember I didn’t get even one drop of cum on Rhonda and Rachel’s sheets
or anywhere else in their room
which was a great success
a miracle really

it was the perfect nightcap
the orgasm was wonderful

and I fell asleep
dreaming that I was in
the same darkness
the woman and her black hair
had also
succumbed to

cocaine and the tears of dolphins

she told me she was 
made of cocaine and 
the tears of dolphins

i laughed, ordered 
two drinks and got 
ready for the show

she said she achieved 
her dreams when she 
ran away to the circus
as a teenager

she had plenty of stories 
of getting raped by clowns 
and blowing a guy while 
fucking around on the 
trapeze

but she wanted to know 
if my poems about hookers 
were true or not

she had certain lines 
she would not cross

i finished my drink 
and ordered another

started to tell a story 
about a nun tired of 
serving god and how 
being in the right place 
isn’t always about luck

Tough Guy

He’d get drunk
And invite everyone
To piss on his grave,
After he was in it,
Of course.
He talked a lot
Of shit with his
Fast tongue,
Loose mouth.
Blatantly offensive
Trash words.
They found him
On the sidewalk
Sunday mornin’
In a pool of 
Piss and blood.
Guess somebody
Didn’t want to
Wait for the grave.

With Love from Ocala

Ain’t a miracle she came home knocked up 
after eight years of marriage 
she waddled around
with the baby name book 
makin list upon list  
stuff you didn’t get done 
cuz it interfered with your beers and shows 
but later when that kid crawls around 
on the cracked linoleum 
blonde wave of hair 
cornflower blue eyes
starin you down 
you know damn well kid ain’t yours
he look kinda goofy 
no-how yours

Old lady runnin around in house slippers
when you met she was wearin those stilettos 
you thinkin how you gonna send this kid back
this foul mouthed little shit
look nothin like you

And now y’all sittin on the back porch 
she’s potbellied and run down 
you’re itchin to get at her anyhows 
but this kid is suckin its thumb to a nub
got nothin to do with your dark hair
your eyes black as night 
and olive skin rough now 
from all that outdoors work you didn’t do

Something ain’t right with this dirty thing
rollin around the floors like a pig in mud

It ain’t right you say

Maybe it’s ok the little runt 
is loose in the walls 
and you’ll grow fondness 
or perhaps some admiration 
when the kid’s old enough y’all can have a chat 
a little tete-a-tete at the table 
with the devil servin y’all 
those baby blues starin 
straight into the soul you don’t have 
needling the message you dead-ass missed
about shootin blanks 

Distraction Under the Sad Sonoran Sun

Two portable radios 
on two different stations,

one American sports talk radio,
the other Mexican music, sit side 

by side on the outside window sill
as a kind of fucked up compromise

while my Mexican wife and I work 
at grunt chores in the yard, 

pretending we are free  
of financial pressure, 

free of the imminence 
of old age,

free of the hatred in our hearts
and the numbness of our fingers

and have only the sunflowers
and arugula to worry about.

Early Morning Cocktails

the dragon-filled meadows come to life
again

as I stare at the sweating glass of gin and tonic.
ten in the morning, no better way to prepare for 
another day of pure nothingness—the bars last night
were rough, no new faces,

only whiskey nursing flies and we had someone to ache for, 
a face we tried to drink away till last call came and stumbled
our way home—some to the nearest park, others to their 
little corners underneath bridges made of snow. 

tiny dark room, encapsulated by
thick clouds of blue smoke; there were no fights, aside from one I picked
with a lamppost that wouldn’t budge, 

and no women. the drink gives me strength
to carry on for another day and hope for a different result. 

in the grasp of insanity for years, always looking for
ways out, even when I want in.
the glass’s dangerously empty, one poem more than enough
to drain it; 

time for a stronger refill, save on the tonic for
when she comes back.

Some Exquisite Lingerie

I’d come over
And take a seat on the sofa
With your husband

You’d sit across the room
In that leather, high-back chair
And pack a bowl

You’d tell me to pull out
My already swelling cock

Then tell him to get down
On the floor before me

Then, after
After he came back
From brushing his teeth

He’d hand me his AmEx
And say that he’d have brunch ready
When we returned, the next day

It only lasted a year or so
But you ended up with
Some exquisite lingerie

Queen Hard-on / Fright Night

King of superficial, ha,
spanks louder till she’s special
Future-fakes for a moment-medal
Thinks a shooting star will settle
Well, bless his heart…

Put him on a pedestal
A hot ghost to keep her cool
Truth always cums on a bar stool
Queen Hard-on chose a dull tool
Well, bless her heart…

Angels and a demon
She’s in a thousand deserts
drowning in semen
Demons and an angel,
both just wanna hike their skirts;
take turns with the label
Well,
bless their checkered hearts…

Gather broken clocks, no feeling
They take turns revealing
She crawls on his ceiling
Karmic wheel is misery-healing
Why is Love always leaving
and rarely 
coming…
Cum on, get a beating, just beat it,
beat me, eat me, lick the icing gone,
some tough love, jerked around, 
jerk it all night, jerks all around, 
jerks for everyone
until everyone is found

A cosmic collide on a freaky Friday,
Bad love dresses up as a good lay
Wind gets a kick blowin’ the wrong way
In the mirror, he thinks he hears her say
I’m taking my soul back tonight
He pleads with his pseudo reflection
Cum on baby, 
don’t leave me in this forever-fright
night

Smoking Hot Love

They said smoking would injure my health.
I lit up a menthol, feeling the cool vapor
Swirl down my throat in a gust of ecstasy.
He found me in the garden, under a tree,
Where the smoke curled around my head,
Like an angel’s halo, and caught me in his arms.
Dragging on that butt, I blew smoke rings
Into his mouth. He swallowed them whole.
My coal burned with red-hot passion.
He took it from my fingers and put it to his lips,
Inhaled quietly, and exhaled a gentle
Cloud of smoke across my face.
I breathed it in, inhaling the essence of his love.
He crushed the butt under his foot,
Pulled me to the ground,
And unbuttoned my smoke-perfumed blouse.
My heart burst into flame.