David Fewster

ON DISCOVERING BUKOWSKI’S EAST HOLLYWOOD BUNGALOW WAS NOW A REGISTERED LOS ANGELES LANDMARK, POSTING A PICTURE OF IT ON FACEBOOK, AND BEING TOLD BY LARRY CRIST IT LOOKED ‘BOURGEOIS’

For one thing, Sunset & Normandie,
the major intersection a couple blocks away,
can safely be called ‘seedy’ without
the denizens feeling particularly slandered.
On the short stroll to our destination one Saturday afternoon, 
we passed a shopping cart homeless guy
and heard a loud girl/boy fight in a nearby vacant lot—
the girl providing most of the volume in what sounded like 
recriminations for hopes and expectations dashed.
(Remembering all the while William Burrough’s admonition
“Never get in the middle of a boy/girl fight.”)
After a wrong turn down a blind alley
with a lotta construction work going on in it,
we arrive at 5124 De Longpre Avenue.
There was a huge metal fence across the parking lot!
“Oh no!” I thought. “They turned it into a gated community?!”
Peering thru the bars, one could make out
a gray plaque on the front archway—‘BUKOWSKI COURT’,
followed by the addresses of the nine units within.
The inside of the courtyard didn’t seem especially posh,
nor the squeals of the urchins playing in back.
Reflecting on the matter, we decided the gate was a good idea.
Otherwise, kids from the four corners of the globe
would be taking selfies of themselves 24/7,
drinking beer on the doorstep, pissing and puking all over,
and in general turning it into the new Jim Morrison’s Grave,
which I’m sure is not what
the Los Angeles Historical Landmark Society had in mind.

Luckily, we discovered the huge white cement apartment building
next door had an open walkway facing the complex,
so we ended up getting a good look at the bungalows—
Buk had the one in the very front,
a couple yards from the sidewalk
(as related in his story where he falls down drunk and can’t get up
when a cop stops and he’s like
“JUST ROLL ME 5 FEET TO MY PORCH, PLEASE…”)
Anyhow, truth be told, the bungalows were kinda cute,
with their faded orange stucco & red tile roofs,
and  potted cacti on the porches and the walls draped
with creeping shrubs that may well be
that tournefortia stuff dangling in the title of
my favorite book of Bukowski poetry.
Shit, I don’t know. I’m a poet, not a botanist. But I digress—
The point, Larry, is what the hell is wrong with that?
You want he should live in a tar paper shack
just to make you happy? 
He was a respectable blue collar worker
for the USPS, for chrissakes,
not some gutterbum.

And maybe if, while sitting in his kitchen,
basking in the late afternoon sunlight
on a pleasant Saturday in January a half-century ago,
Charles Bukowski experienced
a fleeting moment of contentment contemplating the beauty 
of what John Fante called “this pretty, pretty town,”
please don’t condemn him, Larry.
We are all weak sometimes.

William Taylor Jr.

Embracing the Devil in New Orleans: A Review of Todd Cirillo’s Disposable Darlings

The poems in Disposable Darlings, New Orleans poet Todd Cirillo’s latest collection from Roadside Press, often deal with lust and love in the streets and bars of New Orleans, and Cirillo is the perfect tour guide. Many of the poems have a strong sense of place, and quickly envelop the reader into their world. Full disclosure – I have spent some hours with Todd drinking in New Orleans bars, and can say firsthand that his poems expertly capture the feel of it:

We spend hungover holidays
on barstool thrones,
where liquor bottles
stand like gods
under Christmas lights
providing us gifts
we didn’t know
we needed.

While the pieces sometimes visit the darker alleys of relationships and barroom lives, by the end they most always find their way back to some semblance of light. The poems never ultimately feel jaded,  always ready to open their hearts up to the joys and sorrows of life once the latest hangover subsides a bit.

These poems are in love with being in love – with people and places, with life itself. A scarce quality present in Cirillo’s poems is the refreshing lack of cynicism and detachment – they are there in the thick of things, unabashedly with hearts on sleeves. Cirillo skillfully manages lines that are genuinely romantic without being saccharine or mawkish:

He kisses the inside
of her left wrist
knowing every spring
he has now
will feel like
her.

Many of the pieces explore the various stages of a relationship – from the awkward beginnings to the often inevitable endings and everything in between, with humor and insight into the human condition. The poems highlight our failings and foibles as humans and partners with empathy, and remind us that even the most fleeting of human interactions leave their mark and are not without meaning. 

When not exploring the complexities of relationships, the poems occasionally take shots at what Cirillo sees as a watered down current poetry scene. He prefers the traditional excesses of poetry, the swagger and style of the devil, bemoaning poetry that only offers “sympathy for mediocrity,” by poets seemingly more interested in social media attention and embracing current trends than in truly creating worthwhile work.

Todd’s voice is a strong and refreshing one, and he is a born storyteller. The collection entertains from start to finish. Climb in the back seat, pop a bottle and enjoy the ride.

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Adam Hazell

Home improvement

I want to build a cabin
with you
at the edge of the world
and your smile
will be the door
the floor every joke
one of us failed to get
and we’ll flit
from room to room
fucking until the walls
come down
and we’ll rebuild
stronger, better, more secure
just to fuck harder
all the while
watching re-runs of
Home Improvement
and
thrusting to Wilson
– the steadiest side character
you could ever
know

Dawn Pisturino

Retribution

She backed up the car
excited
when she heard the thud of metal against his flesh.
She pulled the car forward 
nearly coming in her pants
when the car lurched over his prostrate body. 
Throwing the car in reverse
she flattened him again
giddy at the release of pent-up rage
simmering inside her like a smoldering volcano.
When the police came
she held out her arms to receive the cuffs
glowing for the gathering crowd.
And when photographers eagerly asked her to hold that pose
she beamed like a young bride on her wedding day.

Ken Kakareka

unrequited love 

it was love 
at first sight; 
i tasted you 
on my lips 
and felt 
intoxicated. 
you had sting 
and bite 
but felt 
so right. 
the yrs. 
rambled on 
and i consumed 
you 
excessively. 
you made me 
sick, 
depressed, 
and broke. 
you made me 
forget 
who i was 
at times. 
but i drowned 
in you 
lustfully. 
addicted to 
your intoxication. 
you stole time 
and health. 
almost 
my life! 
i had to 
divorce you! 
now i love 
myself 
instead of 
being cheated 
by you, 
hooch!

Harry Whitewolf

Troll

The off-his-trolley troll posted on my feed: ‘I’m lonely.’

But it came out as: ‘You’re a poncey wog-loving fuckwit who deserves to have his spastic face bitten off by a rabid Rottweiler on cocaine.’

Then the off-his-trolley troll posted: ‘I just need someone’s attention.’

But it came out as: ‘I hope your sister gets raped by a monkey.’

Then the off-his-trolley troll posted: ‘All I want is to be loved.’

But it came out as: ‘You’re a fat and ugly cunt. Why don’t you do us all a favour and kill yourself?’

So, I finally posted back: ‘I love you’,

And he posted back: ‘Poofter.’

Shane Allison

Enrique

I like you better with longer hair
When it falls past your ears,

How you occasionally blow it out of your face.
For me it’s those button dimples when you smile.

Yeah, I love you most when you’re drunk
And stumbling in a stall behind me

Where the streams of our piss
Pops in a pool of toilet water.

I remember our kiss
When you were kind enough to say,

No, I don’t want to lead you on.

Andy Seven

Reno, Tahoe, Vegas

Reno, Tahoe, Vegas
Buddha, Mohammed, Jesus
from the streets to the sheets
on my heels in my wheels
Reno, Tahoe, Vegas
black sheep to London, New York, and Paris

I went looking for America
but alas, she didn’t want me
no drugs in my jeans for her, you see
she was an opioid whore
gone to seed
sluttony, gluttony and selfish greed

Scarsdale to Scottsdale
Austin to Boston
give me your tired
give me your poor
so I can throw them in prison
that’ll teach them for sure

Come on little son
turn on little girl
pull out your cracked harmonica
let’s go discover America

America cares
like a bandage at a beheading
the lizard eternally shedding
itself from the rest of the world
like a spoiled teenage girl

How can you call this
the land of the free
get me some drunks to spell “liberty”
line my jails with hobos and whores
white people lynching
round the Christmas tree

Never cared much for that city life
didn’t buy into that country hype
All the valleys and the alleys
gaudy sports cars
crashing into gaudier sports bars
kids hawking outdated Maps To The Stars

Come on little son
turn on little girl
pull out your cracked harmonica
let’s go discover America

Didn’t really care for Route 66
all it ever did was dump me off
in the sticks
Fifties diners mobbed by drunken Shriners

This world spin and spun
like carnival art
until it looks like something
that makes you want to throw darts

Come on little son
turn on little girl
pull out your cracked harmonica
let’s go discover America

Aka Disc Over America

Andrew Vuono

God of Desire

earrings in my mouth
air thick with incense
my room is a brothel
and sacred grotto
beneath the tapestry
of Giordorno Bruno
burning with his dream
in constant paradise
your legs on my shoulders
are my wings
my hands are your necklace
wear it, priestess
Babalon, scarlet woman
incarnation
ornament of heaven
feather of Eros
labrodite idol
obsidian flame
on your knees in 
supplication
receive my blessing
my curse
my little death
your profession is
longing
and my God is
Desire

Jessie Lynn McMains

A List of Things I Have Stolen from, or Just Never Returned to, Ex-Lovers

Mostly I’m thinking of the two things I half-stole
from Paolo. The book and the knife. I didn’t really
steal them. I mean the book, he let me borrow it,
and when I broke things off he didn’t ask for it
back, so I figured it was mine to keep. The knife
is another story. Let me start by saying: I don’t
know why I was with him. Our whatever-it-was
lasted less than a month and that was a month
too long. Let me start by saying: it was a time
in my life when I flung myself at anyone
and everyone who’d have me, hoping something
would stick, to distract myself from the feelings
I had for this guy I was in love with, like, angel
chorus, slam pit, no amount of whiskey in the
world could get me past this, I want to have
10,000 of his babies, oh God I think he’s The One,
in love with, because I was too scared to tell
him or even admit the truth of it to myself. Enough
excuses. Back to Paolo. He was a jealous
macho jerk wrapped in the body of a scrawny,
swoopy-banged emo kid. He was an asshole,
and also a total dumbass. One example:
soon after our first date, he tried to impress
me by saying he ‘used to be in Yellowcard,
before they got famous.’ Which was a.
a total lie, I checked, and b. dude, if you’re gonna
lie and say you were in a band to try and
impress me, at least pick a band I like. He
could’ve said he was in Black Flag and I
might’ve half-believed him—everyone was in
Black Flag. Another example: the time I
went to the Kwik Mart across the street
from my apartment to buy a 40 oz.
of Icehouse. I was gone all of ten minutes
and in that ten minutes Paolo called me fifteen
times
 and when I returned his call and
told him where I’d been he accused me
of fucking the Kwik Mart clerk. (You’re right,
dude, I totally fucked him! And when I left,
he said: “Thank you! Cum again!”) Two
weeks in and I already wanted to cut
and run, I mean we’d only been on a few
dates and had only fucked like twice; we
hadn’t labeled our relationship and I was
still seeing several other people, and speaking
of cutting, we’re getting to the knife now—
One night Paolo was lying on my bed, holding
his knife. Not a true switchblade, but it had
a release button which you’d press down
then flick your wrist and snap! The silver
blade—half-serrated, half-not—would pop
out from the shiny black sheath-handle.
Then you’d push it down and click it back
in again. So he’s lying there, idly playing with
his knife, and, flick! “You know,” he said.
Snap! “If you ever cheat on me?” Click. “I’ll
kill the person you cheat with,” flick. “Then,”
snap! “I’ll kill myself.” Click. Flick, snap!
He traced the blade across the veins of
his skinny little wrist, lightly, not drawing
blood, but. What the shit, dude? For me to
cheat on you we’d have to be exclusive,
which we are not, and if you think we are,
you gotta get out of my bed and my life, like,
yesterday. Is what I should have said. Or:
“Oh, you wanna slit your wrists? Be sure to go
down the road, not across the street.
Make it count!” But I didn’t because, look,
I was drunk and yeah, he was scraggy
and pathetic and I could beat him
at arm wrestling but it’s kinda scary when
someone threatens you with murder-
suicide. So I just made some noncommittal
hmmm sound and pretended I hadn’t really
heard him. Did I mention his dick game
was weak as hell? And he was a fucking
whiner. Constantly woe is me I can’t find
a job I’m always broke you’d rather spend time
with your friends than me I’m so lonely the
world is out to get me, blah blah blah, poor
lil’ hipster whiteboy, meanwhile if I said
anything about something shitty in my life
he’d brush it off as so much nothing compared
to what he was going through. About a week
after he’d made those threats he lost
his knife, and that became his newest proof
that the world had it out for him. Yeah.
Paolo was a veritable god damn carnival
of red flags. I finally broke things off about
a week later—because he’d read my
fucking diary and had the nerve to get angry
with me over what he’d read there. Less
than a month after that when I was packing
up my shit, getting ready to leave that
apartment and hit the road, I found his knife
under my bed. And I still had that book
he’d let me borrow. I guess I could’ve called
him but I had less than zero desire to ever
see him again so the book and the knife
went on the road with me. The knife became
my traveling companion; my reward for
having to tolerate that shitface, Paolo.
The book, which was Rocky Horror related
though I can’t remember how exactly, I sold
to a bookstore for store credit, which I spent
on a stack of postcards and an anthology
of stories about Pittsburgh.